In 2019 I started what I saw as my dream job. I was incredibly honored to be offered the position and was eager to jump into a new challenge. To be clear, the job was rewarding. I had the opportunity to teach in a way that was fulfilling and pushed me to solidify my perspective on the practice of yoga.

Unfortunately, the position came with some baggage. It was taxing. It was draining in a way I had not expected.

As I crept toward a full year in my position I had to make a decision. Was I going to stick around and continue with the job? Maybe it was time to move on and seek out something different? (Maybe even enjoy some time off?) Before I made my decision to stay or go, I figured I’d at least try to negotiate the terms of my contract. Seems reasonable, right? A full year in a position without incident could merit a small pay increase.

When given the opportunity to express myself I was left disappointed by the response. Not disappointed that a pay raise was not available. I fully realized that would most likely be the outcome of my inquiry. I was left disappointed because my request was met with “keep your expectations low” and “if you decide to not come back let us know if you have a recommendation for your replacement”.

I would assume most people would be disheartened by such a response. For me, this response carried a heavier weight of sadness. The person delivering those words was once my teacher and mentor. Wouldn’t a teacher want their former student to succeed and fight for their worth? Doesn’t a teacher want their students — past and present — to aim high?

I realize the details of my contract probably weren’t easily negotiable. The position was woven into a ludicrous bureaucratic system. I don’t blame the messenger. I do have frustrations toward the message.

I’ve been reflecting on that interaction for the last month. I’m proud of myself for walking away from a position that saw me as easily replaceable. I’m proud of myself for speaking up and acknowledging my worth. In the health and wellness industry it’s easy to take whatever gig for whatever pay because we love the work. However, at the end of the day we have something of value to offer our students and communities. Our experience and expertise does not come for free.

I didn’t become a seasoned yoga teacher over night. I have worked hard. I have studied and continue to refine my skills. I believe that deserves respect.

I hope all people realize they deserve to set their expectations high. Expect the most from your workplace. Expect the most from the people around you. Stay humble and realistic while acknowledging that you have so much to offer.